Archive for September, 2014

****           Warning, Rant ahead.  Very opinionated post coming up.  If easily offended by opposing opinions then you may want to skip             ****


So there seems to be a rather new way of thinking.   Sure, ignorant people may say some…..well, ignorant things.  What would you say if I told you all of us were ignorant at some point in our lives?   Shocking! I know!  In my recent experience with dealing with people, I’ve found that ignorance is not only frowned upon but I’ve seen people bullied because of it.  Not a very kind thing to do by “educated” or “enlightened” people is it?  Now these ignorant people may claim ridiculous things but instead of bashing them and further adding to an ongoing issue, why not use it as a teaching moment?  Many people talk about how they have a problem with ignorance. Why not become part of the solution instead of encouraging the problem?  From what I’ve seen so far, a lot of it is because of egos.  Some people feel they have all the answers with shifting, energy and the supernatural.   I even met an arrogant person claiming that she knew everything.  As the old saying goes, soon as you think you know everything, you know nothing.  Our own egos have gotten in the way of helping and educating.   This world has plenty of things we don’t understand, suffering, and pain.  It’s up to us to make things better little by little, lessen the burdens of our friends, teach the ignorant, spread happiness when we can.  Most of all, we need to learn understanding.  Our path is not the same as another.   We cannot always understand, but maybe someday we all will seek to understand and that might be just enough.


Last night turned out to be much different than I would have ever expected.  I was looking around the various groups I follow and came across a throat breath exercise an experienced shaman recommended.  I’ve tried many different breathing exercises, meditations, ect. before with little to no success.  I read the breathing exercise multiple times throughout the day until I understood what I was doing.  So I start the exercise, the relaxing, focusing on my breath, ect.  I could feel the energy flowing in my breath coming in and out, my body becoming more relaxed while I continued.  I don’t know exactly how long I continued the exercise (my guess is maybe a minute or two) until I stopped.  I felt calm, but nothing I would consider different.  I rolled over to go to sleep and closed my eyes.   Then the ride began.  I saw white swirling wisps appear.

ok, just the weird things I see when I close my eyes. Nothing to get excited about

The wisps swirled into itself, opening a strange muti-colored circle that started unwinding before my eyes in strange shapes and patterns, swirling in multiple directions before my eyes.

ok, this is new.

The colors danced and swirled all over the place. I wanted to watch everything all at once, but I decided to just focus on certain parts of it and see the details.  The swirling colors unwound itself into a glowing black and white net-like pattern moving across my eyes like a wave.  It moved into a central position into another circle.  The circle grew in size briefly, then changed into the shape of an eye.  More colors flowed from the eye, creating beautiful patterns and colors changing and flowing into each other.

What the hell did I just see?

The colors eventually swirled into themselves, going back into white wisps again and dissipated .  I’ve always seen pictures people post about their spiritual journeys with crazy colors, visions, but I never thought I would experience anything like this first hand.  So my question is, what does it mean? what is it? What was shared with me exactly?

Digital potluck anyone?

It has been a while since I posted. So I’m going to have a digital potluck.  I get to bring all that I can to the table and share.

For a little while I took a step back from wolf stuff.  I felt myself getting frustrated trying to find explanations for the many shifting occurrences, physical and mental.  I still had my fair share of mental shifts during this time (they rarely seem to stop for longer periods of time) but I simply moved past the occasional flares; it’s nothing I can’t handle.  Though I feel the break was good, I still feel no better or worse in figuring much out.  On that note, I have contemplated an old idea that I realized still may have some relevance to all of this.  Back in my younger days, still trying to figure things out, I was experimenting with mental shifting.  During this time I attempted to change the way I thought.  Naturally I think in words, an everlasting (sometimes hellish) interior monologue.  I was attempting to change my thought process to start thinking in experiences rather than words.  So I would be thinking in pictures, smells, feelings, ect.  Needless to say, I wasn’t entirely successful.  Naturally, certain smells reminded me of certain memories, but there wasn’t any change in my state of mind in that way.  Recently BB and I had a conversation about some of the experiences he had, and the topic came up about how he thought.  He said his thought process includes pictures, different from how I think, but also what I had attempted to change my thought process to.  Now while I may not be completely right in this, I think there may be a connection with that.  I’m sure wolves (possibly most animals) would have a similar “thought process”.  I think because of this, BB does have an easier time with certain aspects of shifting and may be a reason why I have so much difficulty with it myself.

While I’m on the subject of mentality, I have been able to learn a lot about myself and how my mind does work.  Essentially, I’m an analyst, my specialty people and human interaction.  While I’m not always right, I can usually tell you a lot about a person just from spending some time with a person.  This tends to make me socially awkward at times.  I’m definitely an introvert that does enjoy extrovert activities.  I could continue going on listing things about myself that I know, but I think the most important/interesting thing is my subconscious.   While I’ve met a lot of people who understand that aspect of themselves, that part of me is a big question mark.  I’ve caught glimpses of it, and I admit some of what I have seen does scare me.  There are some rather dark impulses down that line, but it does make me wonder what I could learn about myself if I was able to explore my subconscious.

So while I haven’t exactly focused on shifting and things of that nature lately, but of course it’s still always a part of me.