Archive for December, 2014

Saying goodbye

I had to take some time to think on this before typing this out.  After 3 years, I said goodbye to someone who despite our disagreements, has been there.  There are many things we don’t and probably will never see eye to eye, but when the time came for someone depend on, he was there.  I don’t regret our meeting or anything that has happened.  I’m happy we could have at least ended things on good terms.  I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors. No matter what, you will still remain my brother.  Spirit be with you Sabre


The Interruption

I had a very strange dream, maybe more like an interruption to a dream, that I’d like to share. I was dreaming my usual chaos infused with faces from the past, some sort of action/thriller kind of dream that I cannot completely recall. Then all of the sudden it changed.

There was a fire burning, people gathered in a circle around it. Some with native headdresses, other with drums, some dancing. A strange rhythm starting quietly and slowly becoming louder. People’s faces around me began changing slowly, one in particular I remember reminded me of a bird of some kind. The beat started to build up, at the same time I felt something start to build up in my lower spine. It crawled up my body until I felt it in my entire body. I couldn’t take it anymore; I roared and slammed my fists on the ground. Silence after a large gasp from everyone. There was silence, then a quiet murmur. Someone came up to me with a look of either concern or fear. He spoke to me. I cannot remember what he said, but I felt it was either advice, a warning, or something I would need later.  Everything changed again back to the initial dream right where it left off.

I am not a therian

Between having to deal with getting my domain up and running again as well as the insane amount of strange encounters I’ve continued to have.  For now I’ll be talking about a recent realization I had.  This may be a big shocker (sarcasm included) to some, but I am not a therian.  Yes, sound the horns and blow the crumpets! Jokes aside, I guess I hoped to find more people in the community that had similar experiences to me.  I started out this path there and found some good friends there.  That time now I have to accept has come to a close.  Why?  Well, after doing some posting and talking with members of the therian community, they have finally established their limits to what the community believes in.  This isn’t necessarily a bad thing.  This means to me, those who have experienced other things that the established therian community, will find themselves searching other places for answers.  While I wish the therian community would not be so harsh on people with conflicting or as seen in their eyes, wrong beliefs, I know they will find other information that would be more beneficial if they are genuine.  For me, this also means refining my search into other areas.  Shamanism has been a big help and extremely beneficial for discovering new abilities, methods, answering questions, ect.  I also have my fellow wolf brothers who always have helped in this ongoing search.  While times aren’t perfect, I’m optimistic.  There’s a light at the end of this tunnel.  I can feel it. Something is still coming, and I feel it inching closer. It’s time to go with the flow and see where I’m led to.